It kills me

It kills me to know I gave you my all with no expectations and you took it
Not to love me, but to have me, use me and to feel good inside
It kills me remembering all my sacrifices, how I murdered myself to please you
It kills me how you failed to love me even though only small things mattered to me
My heart aches as I recall every injustice I was served at your hand, I almost die again


It kills me that your selfishness and ego stops you from loving our kids

 It kills me that you are missing the joys of parenting, for no real reason
It kills me that my fondest memories are from days of old and cold
It kills me that you don’t see your faults or try and better yourself
It kills me that those close to you lead you astray


It kills me that you never saw how I cared and wanted only the best for you
It killed me that you only saw wrong in me, always highlighting my imperfections
It killed me to say good bye to walk away from all I knew and built
It killed me to stop the vision before it was realised, it killed me to leave
It killed me that you could never own your actions and be a man

It kills me that you will miss my love that I always gave freely

It kills me that that I can not shelter you from the coming storms
It kills me that I will forever have scars from loving you with my all
It kills me that you think you did all right, and hide from each call

It kills me that the shreds of my heart adorn your garden
it kills me that that my love was your lust
it kills me that I allowed your covet' to eclipse my mind
it kills me that my imagination ignored your intentions

It kills me that you don’t see any of this and you blindly walk about proudly
It kills me that you think this is but just a game or rather a battle for victory
It kills me that you don’t know you have lost me for good,
It kills me that they all say she will be back soon, when my return will never come

It kills me to say goodbye but for happiness I must try