2012

This has been a year full of new experiences and utter bravery on my part, I have covered so much new ground it is somewhat unbelievable. I began my year with just one resolution to break new ground and be open to new things, this was the best resolution as the entire year I had one statement at the back of my mind which was “if it’s new try it”. I traveled and I got involved in so many new projects it was very liberating and refreshing.

This year began at home, a very different start, I slept through the entry. I hated this as I assumed that nothing but a boring year lay ahead, and boy was I wrong! A week later was my real new year which was my birthday, I had a bonanza with my best friend (Lynda) we discovered whiskey (which played a huge role in my 2012). This year I was fearless and I stuck to my guns I made decisions to change the things that I didn’t like in my life and I stuck to those decisions making for a much better and happier life. I also learnt being happy came with extra weight literally, im working on losing those extra kilos. I may have burnt bridges in finding myself and being happy but I’m sure they were bridges I would not miss much. I learnt that following your heart is the best move you can make. I am so fine with walking away and not looking back if it’s my loss oh well we can’t live a life of crying over spilt milk now can we?

 I left my husband this year,  it was very difficult walking away and I did it hoping he would realize his mistakes and make amends but he didn't. I learnt that I can only control my reactions and not anyone else’s. It was a hard pill to swallow, coming to the realization that someone I gave my all to didn't so much as try to make things work, well it only reassured me that I made the right decision in leaving as a marriage is teamwork. Relationships thereafter have been the most difficult thing for me to develop as I was accustomed to dealing with one person and dealing with different characters has been a challenge, I was set in my very selfish ways and totally clueless to the dating world after being out of the game for seven years, the game had clearly changed.

I went through the learning curves and came out totally clueless still, I enveloped myself in work  this year but who is complaining? It has been a year of groundwork laying out a foundation for a secure future and figuring out what I really want to do. The hardest part has been not seeing results immediately and the wait there is nothing more frustrating than seeing the future, working towards it and not being able to enjoy it just as yet, I have learnt that all good things come to those that wait. Honestly I hate waiting but I have no other option but to wait. 2013 Is set to be a year far more amazing than 2012, I have been like a baby that learnt to crawl all year and this month I got my walking ring so early next year imma be walking, I so look forward to walking in 2013.

My year has been nothing short of amazing I lived this year I wasn't just alive, I was not afraid to put myself out there and I was comfortable just being me, I was not repentant about who I was and I embraced myself, as such I have very few regrets. I am pleased with 2012 and I am utterly excited for 2013, I wish you all a prosperous New Year and lots of peace and blessings and remember love yourself and God and your good. Happy New Year Diamonds!!

IF (too good not to share)

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream---and not make dreams your master;
If you can think---and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:.
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And---which is more---you'll be a Man, my son! 

Rudyard Kipling