I learnt much later in life to embrace being different, it was a hard lesson as there is comfort in going with the masses and being a face in the crowd. This was never my destiny unfortunately and sticking out like a sore thumb is just me and I have learnt to embrace it finally.
As women we are raised to be good wives, great mothers and phenomenal home makers however it brings great discomfort that for many of us the list of achievements ends there. I am all for having a great home ethic and being a phenomenal home maker I am one myself and take great pride in my wifely skills so to put them.
However I just don't think that this all there is to us, I strongly believe as women we are the one sex with the ability and will power to do more,achieve more live more and be more. Just a bit of background to avoid the perception that I am a bitter woman who has turned against the age old housewife. I was a wife for a few years and it was a great job until I matured and apart of me desired more in terms of growth and achievements and unfortunately my partner wasn't ready for a stronger me nor for my growth and self development.
A hunger grew inside of me that wasn't fulfilled by stagnation any longer .A fire burned within me of potential to be more than I ever imagine and when I shared this with my then partner it was stifled. Fortunately for me the strong feeling that I was wasting my potential began to haunt me in the form of discomfort and unhappiness. The happiness and comfort I had built and felt very comfortable in was fading fast and I couldn't bare 20 more years of letting my potential die.
This was my next stage of maturity as a woman, and probably the stage when many of us are told that we change as we begin to want more and rightfully so. I agree with the fact that for women every decade brings a new level of maturity, change and growth. Fortunately for me my twenties wouldn't allow me to be a passenger in my own life, I was not meant to be a girl who gave it all up for her children. My future was meant to be bright bold and beautiful, however I had to fight the fear of the unknown and take a leap of faith into a new chapter and leave all my comforts behind.
Looking back now I would strongly embrace the younger me that walked away from comfort, as it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. How I have evolved in the last four years is unbelievable, its been an amazing journey of self discovery, trust and acceptance and I look forward to my thirties as I near the next stage of my maturity. I have never felt so comfortable in my own skin, being a strong woman who knows what she wants and goes after it unapologetically. If you asked me today what can't you do the only answer I could give is Fail.
I have discovered a place of limitless potential and opportunity and no one could have ever told me that I would be the woman I am today but, interestingly enough I look forward to the woman I will be tomorrow. I am bold and very different and daring however its a beautiful thing to be viewed with marvel and interest. I still know that the best is yet to come and I am growing into the woman I have always wanted to be daily, the diamond is being perfected.
