Today is my mother's 3 year death anniversary and well i am at that stage where i go into num lock *theoretically*. It's technically meant to be a very emotional day with various protocol involving a cemetery visit and all, but in reality it isn't, it's just another day and you literally forget the significance of the day until you see the date or get a reminder.
When i realized the date i felt a bit bad but honestly i didn't shed a tear my heart bleeds as something is evidently missing, but more than anything else i am angry at the fact that life is so unfair. I have been to one too many funerals this year and they give me a headache i just can't deal with this reality why are we put on this earth to witness so many injustices? It is so heartbreaking for me that we are here on this earth waiting for either ourselves or the one's around us to be ripped from this earth.
When i cry my tears are solely for the injustice in this world and the frustrations of the reality of life, I know it profits nothing to be so negative but it is a reality we have to deal with. I am not depressed just in a different zone and writing from a different space. Every tear drop represents one thing or the other it's helpful to understand it's meaning.
When i realized the date i felt a bit bad but honestly i didn't shed a tear my heart bleeds as something is evidently missing, but more than anything else i am angry at the fact that life is so unfair. I have been to one too many funerals this year and they give me a headache i just can't deal with this reality why are we put on this earth to witness so many injustices? It is so heartbreaking for me that we are here on this earth waiting for either ourselves or the one's around us to be ripped from this earth.
When i cry my tears are solely for the injustice in this world and the frustrations of the reality of life, I know it profits nothing to be so negative but it is a reality we have to deal with. I am not depressed just in a different zone and writing from a different space. Every tear drop represents one thing or the other it's helpful to understand it's meaning.
