If only you knew.
If only you knew how my hands trembled when no one
was watching. How I stayed up late, staring at the
ceiling, replaying every moment in my mind, wondering
if did the right thing. If only you knew about the doubts
that whispered in my ear, telling me I wasn't enough
that I wasn't as strong as I pretended to be. I kept my
smile in place, my voice steady, because that's what you
needed to see. But behind closed doors, when no one
was around, I fell apart. The tears 1 held back all day
would spill out, and I'd let myself feel everything I'd been
holding in. If only you knew how much it took to keep
going, to keep pretending that was okay when all I
wanted to do was hide
You saw the calm, the composure, the smile that never
wavered. But you didn't see the cracks, the moments
when I doubted myself, the times when I wondered how
much longer 1 could keep it all together. I made it look
easy because that's what everyone needed to see. But
inside, I was fighting battles no one knew about, and
every day was just another round
If only you knew ..
